In Doubt

Sometimes, I wonder. Wonder what am I doing with my life. Hati ini ragu; adakah hidup ini menghala ke arah yang betul jalannya?

I’m actually scared about where I am going to be in the future. I’m scared of what the future holds for me.

Because I’m on a journey whose destination I know not. Yeah, the unknown future.

Struggling slightly

Just in case if you guys are wondering where I’ve been, this is what life looks like for me currently. Its been pretty hectic in the last couple of months, which is possibly why my last entry was just over 2 months ago. Busyyyyyy, but in a good and enjoy way. Haha.

Berjaya melalui 4 bulan ber-internship dengan jayanya. Lecturer pun dah datang visit, and I got positive comment and pleasant compliment from my lecturer. Alhamdulillah. One month left and that will put a dot for my degree road. InsyaAllah. And now for sure I need to work extremely harder to achieve a good grade for my last semester through my internship report. I know you can do it my darling self!

Okay la, jumpa di entry lain since ada banyak benda nak update. I promise I will be back as soon as I can okay? Take care! Xoxo.

Happy birthday to 23-year-old me

7th March.

Alhamdulillah, masih diberi peluang menikmati kehidupan di dunia. Never could I imagine that the life I am living would be enough. At the age of 23, with all of its twists and turns, life has been so good to me. And in some ways, even better than I ever thought possible.

A day before my birthday, bila sampai dekat meja office, ada ‘something’ atas meja. Haha serious sangat terharu! Yela, bak kata Mama, baru sebulan je intern kat situ, kira dorang ingat la jugak birthday aku. Yang paling special siap ada sign JD okay. Thank you JD and akak-akak semua! 😀

And because yesterday was my birthday, my beloved fiance surprised me this! T__________T Thank you so so so so so much my future hubs! Tak expect akan dapat hadiah ni pon sebenarnya since iPhone 5s aku baru berusia 8 bulan tup tup dah dapat baby baru. Thank youuuuuu!

I am truly blessed to have seen a new year, celebrate a new year of growth, opportunity, and change. To say that nothing exciting has happened over the past year would be calling me a liar. This will also be the year where I will push boundaries, establish new ones, look for new adventures, and embark on a journey of self-discovery and personal growth soon. May Allah ease everything. Amin.

Wordless Wednesday #9

Happy 3rd Anniversary !

04.02.12 – 04.02.15

3 years with this guy, with countless number of KMs travelled, we are still somehow making it work. We are 303KM apart from each other, and this distance has been the absolute hardest thing in this relationship but we are still going strong! I’m not going to pretend like it’s been easy and perfect the whole time, but it’s been pretty close to that. It’s been so hard somedays, and we definitely have our ups and downs. But I wouldn’t change any of it. We wouldn’t be where we are, nor as strong as we are without it.

3 years have passed by so quickly. To most people, 3 years isn’t a long time, but to me it seems like I’ve known you forever. Throughout this time, we’ve learned about each other and learned about ourselves. We’ve made accomplishments and made mistakes, we’ve had good times and rough times, but somehow we always seem to pull through TOGETHER.

Mohd Izzat – He cares for me beyond what I deserve & puts the most effort to ensure my happiness. He makes me feel beautiful at my absolute worst and accepts me nonetheless. He makes me and my life better. He never tries to change me, instead he tells me everyday I’m perfect and asks me to stay the same. He sees in me the good that I fail to see in myself. He loves me and because he does, I have everything 🙂

Mohd Izzat, you’re everything I could have ever asked for. You are my biggest supporter, strongest critic and a gift that truly keeps on giving. With you, I don’t have to work so hard to be happy, it just happens effortlessly. Thank you for being so good to me even when I don’t deserve it. Thank you for your sacrifice in ulang-alik dari Kedah ke Selangor every two weeks. Thank you for your never ending love and support. Above all, thank you for loving me every single day, thank you for helping me achieve everything I can and pushing me to go even beyond that. No amount of words can describe the appreciation I have for this guy.

Mohd Izzat, I want you to know that I love you more than I’ll ever be able to explain to you or put down in words. You’re indeed the awesomest fiance in the world. Growing old with you is the best thing I could ever dream of and it still feels surreal that in just few months I’ll be marrying this guy. I just can’t wait. Happy Anniversary My Future Hubs! <3 😉